You humbled yourself and tore your clothing in despair and wept before me in repentance. And I have indeed heard you, says the LORD

Sometimes I can be

          I’m not proud of it, I don’t want to act that way, but I do.  I’m not always like that, but I have had moments of unholiness. I’ve sat sulking sometimes for days with things I’ve done and said.  If we sin, we need to repent from our heart and make things right. Say sorry if you have offended anyone, do everything you can to make peace-yes, even if you are right and they are wrong. 

Why do you boast of evil, you mighty hero?
    Why do you boast all day long,
    you who are a disgrace in the eyes of God?
You who practice deceit,
    your tongue plots destruction;
    it is like a sharpened razor. 
You love evil rather than good,
    falsehood rather than speaking the truth.
 You love every harmful word,
    you deceitful tongue! Ps 52
(I cannot number the amount of times I have accidentally opened up this verse after I just finished fighting with someone- it scared me! Changing to be perfect doesn’t happen overnight. I’m a work in progress)

            God wants us to Forgive others, repent of our sins and be peacemakers. I had to say I was sorry and I didn’t want to. I still cringe at the thought of it, humbling, but how great it is to be obedient. If you’ve done something wrong:stop sulking!!!!! dust yourself off, get back on track and keep going.  It’s okay to have a time of repentance and reflection- but I wonder if sometimes we make it last a lot longer than it should.     

   Our instructions: to prove our repentance by the way we live and to strengthen ourselves and go on.

  • Acts 13:38“Brothers, listen! We are here to proclaim that through this man Jesus there is forgiveness for your sins.
    We know He forgives us- do we need to go back to the basics again? When will we really understand and believe- that the Lord Jesus is our Mediator, He pleads for us, He took our punishment that we deserved upon that cross. He made a way when there was no way. He opened the door for us and has us seated in heavenly places before the Lord God- to whom our spirits cry “Abba, Abba”

              Sometimes I feel like God says- LISA- get off the sulking boat in your sin, repent, make things right. What good am I to God’s kingdom if I hide from God and everyone else. How can I encourage and lift up those around me if I want to hide from God. I need to make things right, repent, change, prove it, and strengthen myself in the Lord .   
Fix your thoughts.
Here’s my thought test :
Is it true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent or praiseworthy?   These are the things that should be consuming my mind.

Have you forgotten Him?Have you fallen away from the Lord?  There is more joy in heaven over one lost sinner who repents and returns to God than over ninety-nine others who are righteous and haven’t strayed away!Repent, all of you who forget me, or I will tear you apart, and no one will help you.Psalm 50:21-23 , Luke 15:7

Wrong thoughts?   ” Repent of your wickedness and pray to the Lord. Perhaps he will forgive your evil thoughts, for I can see that you are full of bitter jealousy and are held captive by sin.” 
       A few years ago I asked God for discernment about thoughts, and a few days later He showed me: I saw thoughts from the enemy- as if they were darts and they were thrown into my mind. With the discernment the Lord gave me, I knew they were horrible lies, wrong thoughts, and I remember one specifically that wanted me to think God didn’t love me anymore. I stopped them right at the door and refused to acknowledge or think on these things. Proof: Eph 6:16 In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil.  Stop wrong thoughts and mindsets and fix your thoughts on what is true (Phil 4:8) If you’ve got wrong thoughts – fix them. Sin wants to master you, but you must master sin.

UH-OOOOOO: Check out this verse- playing stupid doesn’t work:
Proverbs 24:12 Don’t excuse yourself by saying, “Look, we didn’t know.” For God understands all hearts, and he sees you. He who guards your soul knows you knew. He will repay all people as their actions deserve.

Your words – be careful we are accountable for everything we say
Where you go -You know what- I was about to get my nails done the other day and as I walked into the nail salon I saw the Buddha with an offering table and apples given the idols. In my spirit I kept hearing Psalms 4:23 about guarding your heart: Look straight ahead, and fix your eyes on what lies before you.  Mark out a straight path for your feet; stay on the safe path. Don’t get sidetracked;keep your feet from following evil. I never thought of that before, but I’ve decided to guard my heart and I’m not taking any chances. Maybe you don’t agree- but this is how I am guided,  I don’t condemn others.  It’s about my obedience to the Lord and what he commands me to do- not about making everyone happy around me.

Your Actions– “he did not scream or shout”- Oh dear, this is a spear in my side.(For the word of God is alive and powerful. It is sharper than the sharpest two-edged sword, cutting between soul and spirit, between joint and marrow. It exposes our innermost thoughts and desires.)  Let’s just say that the Lord spoke to me through Isaiah 42:2 and when I tried to run away from it I turned the page to Matthew 12:19 (which was the exact same thing!)

He will not fight or shout
    or raise his voice in public.
20 He will not crush the weakest reed
    or put out a flickering candle.
    Finally he will cause justice to be victorious

How do you treat others? Are my conversations full of gossip and judging others? Am I encouraging or discouraging others with my words? What are my true motives in my heart for the things I do?

 Paul had the same struggle:

          So the trouble is not with the law, for it is spiritual and good. The trouble is with me, for I am all too human, a slave to sin.  I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
                And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t. I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
         I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong.  I love God’s law with all my heart. But there is another power within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. 24 Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin.


          When I first started going to bible studies years ago, the teachers and leaders seemed to carry this invisible tag on them “I am perfect”. To reach their position in the church or group seemed impossible in their perfection, but as the years have gone by I’ve realized that isn’t the case with anyone. I found out I’m not the only Christian that has had a slip up with my words, my actions and my thoughts. Just yesterday I was really close to dropping a bomb word- but I’m thankful I stopped it before it rolled out.
     I’m sure there are some super sister Christians out there who would look down at me for that, but that’s just one of the things I struggle with. Surely I’ve got some boulders in my own eyes that I’m working on. I just thought you should know that if you have sinned, then repent, ask the Lord to forgive you and ask for his help in dealing with whatever it is you are dealing with. 

Why so downcast, Oh my soul? Put your hope in God

          I am a work in progress, and I know the Lord is changing me day by day. Changing my mindsets, my thoughts, my words, my music, my television shows, the books I read, getting out of the world -this takes time-and maybe even some struggles. We don’t supernaturally become perfect the day we ask Jesus in our lives. He helps us. You can be sure of this- that He who started a good work in you will finish it until the end.
     One morning I was really down in the dumps because I had said a horrible thing to my husband in anger as he left for work. I felt horrible. How could I say that if I was a Christian, a bible reader, a proclaimer of Christ? I struggled all morning wondering about myself and felt unworthy to even go to the Lord. I turned on the t.v. and there was Kay Arthur. She was telling the audience that she had just said a horrible word to her husband and felt awful and how she repented. Hearing those words and realizing I wasn’t alone encouraged me. I repented, said I was sorry and continued on without looking back.  Her confession helped me. I wonder if that is why the bible says to confess our sins to one another. I know it doesn’t say “act all holier than everyone else”.


  • Joshua 7:19Then Joshua said to Achan, “My son, give glory to the LORD, the God of Israel, by telling the truth. Make your confession and tell me what you have done. Don’t hide it from me.”
  • Psalm 32:3When I refused to confess my sin, my body wasted away, and I groaned all day long.
  • Psalm 66:18
    If I had not confessed the sin in my heart, the Lord would not have listened.
  • Jeremiah 3:13
    Only acknowledge your guilt. Admit that you rebelled against the LORD your God and committed adultery against him by worshiping idols under every green tree. Confess that you refused to listen to my voice. I, the LORD, have spoken!
  • Daniel 9:20
    [ Gabriel’s Message about the Anointed One ] I went on praying and confessing my sin and the sin of my people, pleading with the LORD my God for Jerusalem, his holy mountain.
  • James 5:16
    Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results.
  • 1 John 1:9
    But if we confessour sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness. Chapter)
  • Hosea 14:2
    Bring your confessions, and return to the LORD. Say to him, “Forgive all our sins and graciously receive us, so that we may offer you our praises.

    Just this past weekend I was spit fire mad- and at what? I don’t know…. I spent all day wondering, pondering and wasting my time about why I was feeling this way. I opened up God’s Word and I was completely set free. God’s Word can change our situations and our false mindsets. Listen to His Words. You will find life and healing in them.So run the race, my friends. Dust yourself off and keep on going. We all fall short- and sometimes it’s all day- but each minute is new, each day is new and we hold on to the Word and listen to His instructions.

    Consider Peter: a disciple and friend of Jesus . He denied Jesus three times. I probably would have ran away thinking I was unworthy ,but Jesus is merciful. Peter was the Rock on which the church was built!  I just finished a study on David and I was amazed at His relationship with God, his Father. David’s life was full of sins, wrongs, mistakes – yet he had a heart and a love for the Lord and the Lord loved Him and forgave him.  David wasn’t perfect, but we read his prayers of repentance and his desire to have right standing with God. David saw God as his Father, Abba, Abba, he would cry out to the Lord every day. Let’s think about some things: Abraham lied and said his wife was his sister, Jacob tricked his father and mother, Moses killed a man, Joseph’s brothers lied to their father and sold their brother, David disobeyed, murdered, and committed adultery, the bible is full of stories about people just like me and you. 
               My message to you is to stop sulking in your wrong doings and stand up and run this race for Christ. Prove your repentant heart with the way you live.The kingdom needs you.
                My other message is for the super Christians to get real and stop pretending you are so perfect. Does that attitude really attract people to God’s kingdom?  I don’t want to go the Wedding feast alone, I want it to be full of God’s children. I want them to know how much God loves them, not how much better I am than they are.  Sure, I can put on my super sister christian act and really fool you if I wanted to, but I think it’s best to let you know that we all have downfalls.  I’ve gotten much better, but I still have moments where I fall.

           I’m sure a few out there are ready to cast some stones here, but I really don’t care . Throw them, not one of them will hit me, they may bounce back at you, but I know who I am in Christ. He came for those of us who knew we were lost and sinners, not for the self-righteous.

Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin.

For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me. 
Against you, you only, have I sinned 
and done what is evil in your sight;
so you are right in your verdict and justified when you judge. 

 Surely I was sinful at birth,sinful from the time
             my mother conceived me.                          

Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb;
    you taught me wisdom in that secret place.

 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones you have crushed rejoice.
 Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity.

Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me from your presence 
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation 
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
so that sinners will turn back to you.
Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,
you who are God my Savior,
and my tongue will sing of your righteousness. 
Open my lips, Lord,
and my mouth will declare your praise.
You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
My sacrifice, O God, is[b] a broken spirit;
    a broken and contrite heart
    you, God, will not despise.

Matthew 3:2“Repent of your sins and turn to God, for the Kingdom of Heaven is near.
Matthew 3:8Prove by the way you live that you have repented of your sins and turned to God.
Luke 3:8 Prove by the way you live that you have repented of your sins and turned to God. Don’t just say to each other, ‘We’re safe, for we are descendants of Abraham.’ That means nothing, for I tell you, God can create children of Abraham from these very stones.
Luke 5:32I have come to call not those who think they are righteous, but those who know they are sinners and need to repent.”
Luke 15:7 In the same way, there is more joy in heaven over one lost sinner who repents and returns to God than over ninety-nine others who are righteous and haven’t strayed away!
Luke 22:32 But I have pleaded in prayer for you, Simon, that your faith should not fail. So when you have repented and turned to me again, strengthen your brothers.”
Luke 24:47It was also written that this message would be proclaimed in the authority of his name to all the nations, beginning in Jerusalem: ‘There is forgiveness of sins for all who repent.’
2 Kings 22:19 You were sorry and humbled yourself before the LORD when you heard what I said against this city and its people—that this land would be cursed and become desolate. You tore your clothing in despair and wept before me in repentance. And I have indeed heard you, says the LORD.
1 Kings 8:47  But in that land of exile, they might turn to you in repentance and pray, ‘We have sinned, done evil, and acted wickedly.’
2 Kings 22:19 You were sorry and humbled yourself before the LORD when you heard what I said against this city and its people—that this land would be cursed and become desolate. You tore your clothing in despair and wept before me in repentance. And I have indeed heard you, says the LORD.
2 Chronicles 32:26 Then Hezekiah humbled himself and repented of his pride, as did the people of Jerusalem. So the LORD’s anger did not fall on them during Hezekiah’s lifetime.
Psalm 7:12  If a person does not repent, God will sharpen his sword; he will bend and string his bow.|
Psalm 50:22  Repent, all of you who forget me, or I will tear you apart, and no one will help you.
Psalm 51:17  The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit. You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God.
Isaiah 1:27 Zion will be restored by justice; those who repent will be revived by righteousness.
Isaiah 57:15 The high and lofty one who lives in eternity, the Holy One, says this: “I live in the high and holy place with those whose spirits are contrite and humble. I restore the crushed spirit of the humble and revive the courage of those with repentant hearts.