Concussion Recovery week 3. day 27


ughhhhh 27 days! Can you believe this. I wished I was still sleeping when I woke up today because when I’m sleeping there is no pain, just an occasional weird dream. Not every morning is like today, every day is different.

I don’t have an exciting story about my concussion, I woke up with a bruised head and later I bumped my head at the gym during a vacation in fort Myers at Pink Shell. Two hours later it hit me. Not an exciting story, I wasn’t doing triples on skates, kayaking through rough waters, jumping out of an airplane or exploring caves in Turkey – no, just an ordinary knock me out concussion without notice! I’m in bed most of the day. I’m not supposed to read, watch tv or do anything with thinking but here I am blogging and I’m reading the bible, a little dizzy now, but I hope to make it through.

I had NO idea recovery would be this long. I’ve been wanting to blog but my mind won’t let me. It’s difficult to drive, it takes all my concentration. If I see a bird or an iguana or anything that gets my attention, I forget I’m driving “Oh look! that hawk is huge and has a fish in his claws..or is it a baby duck, what is it hmmm I wonder what lake he got that fish from  ” or “wow, look at all those vultures circling the marked off area of swamp, I bet there’s a body in there, should I call the authorities, why aren’t the vultures eating yet” . So on my last 2 short driving excursions, those were a couple of my distracting thoughts before I remember again that I’m driving. I stay off the road mainly, just once or twice took a short drive, but need more time.  If someone in front of you is slow, please be patient! it may be me, and I always honk back. That’s just who I am.

I can handle an occasional conversation but if I’m around more than 3 people, I get really confused and it’s difficult.

Staring has become my new hobby and scrubbing grout or a stain on anything for a long time, is a new skill i can do. I now notice things I never did before, like how I need to clean my blinds and my kitchen cupboards. One thing at a time. It’s almost like I’m on Ritalin. but hey, is anyone listening?

One of my first days back at attempting to read, I read this:

Daniel 11:35 And some of those of understanding shall fall, to refine them, purify them, and make them white, until the time of the end; because it is still for the appointed time.

  Wait a minute, I just fell and is this verse telling me something  or am I thinking to much?

So let me share some things I’ve learned, Ive thought or helped me though:

  1. Always be prepared – Thank God I had 6 months of homeschool planned with papers printed and organized in a binder per week. I am sure God nudged me to do that for this purpose.
  2. Live a life to please the Lord and not people. I can’t make everyone happy and I am A OK with that.
  3. I think depression is an evil spirit that tries to take over, you need to fight back. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. If you don’t agree, that’s cool, I have no energy to fight. I think the same of anxiety as well. I cant see into the spirit world, but that’s what I’m thinking. Don’t be mad
  4. Is it just me, or are doctor’s over medicating everyone
  5. Please be quiet
  6. Always remain hopeful! So many times I was losing hope, hate that feeling! Healing is taking so long and I’m used to drive through wendy’s rapido about everything in life. So this sloooooowneess is a new thing to me. I remembered the 10 spies who went to spy out the land and 8 had NO hope, only 2 believed God even though it looked impossible. I have to remember this – even though my days may look hopeless- I don’t believe what I feel or see – I have to have hope, I have to believe that better days and healing are ahead. It would greatly displease God to see that I didn’t hope in His healing and hope and know that He is always with me.
  1. Fix my thoughts. I had to recite this daily and answer each question.
  • what is true? God cares and watches over me, I rest in His shadow
  • What is Noble? A heart that Loves the Lord
  • What is right? That I don’t give up, that I hang on to the Lord – wait on the Lord, yes wait on the Lord
  • What is pure? The heart of the Father who created me and His Son who died for my awful sins.
  • What is lovely? Your eyes are like doves, thank you Jesus!
  • What is admirable? to be light and an example of Christ in this world
  • What is excellent? God’s goodness!
  • What is praiseworthy? My heart is full of thanks for all the blessings of God, they cannot be counted. So so so so thankful for laughter and humor. So many things have made me laugh even when I couldn’t talk in the hospital.
  1. Change your thoughts to thankfulness, certainly theres something you can be thankful for. Hey! I can read!
  2. Ask God for joy, that He would pour out the oil of gladness on you. sing it: If you want joy, you must ask for it, if you waaant joooy you must ask for it…the joy of the Lord is your strength!
  3. I hope I never have another bear dream again
  4. God knew this was going to happen, God is in control. He cares! yes He does. Trust in Him
  5. Ask for peace, amen. Pray for healing and never give up.
  6. I watched John Hagee and He said God never takes something from you unless He’s going to give you something far better than what you have. Give up whatever keeps you in bondage. Take the challenge to be better than what you can be. Maybe God dropped a catfish in my life to increase vigor – had to watch show to get that
  7. I’m getting dizzy but I don’t want to stop
  8. I found peace and rest in the shelter of the Most High, yes I did.
  9. He calls you back to Him
  10. His mercy is New every day! I say this every morning to myself. I didn’t get it at first but now I do.
  11. His power is perfected in weakness, I’m still trying to wrap my head around that one. Read Paul’s many attacks and you’ll feel better.
  12. Read Job, He lost everything, even his dignity before all he knew. Hang on to God’s hope and don’t ever give up.
  13. Stop worrying, you need to fix your thoughts for that one.
  14. Bring all your thoughts captive to the Lord! He’s had to take a lot of luggage full of thoughts from me lately.
  15. Let the Word of God change your mind, to be a new person in Christ
  16. Glory in your infirmaties  – Lord knows I’m still working on that – that the power of Christ may rest upon me, I’m not sure I wrote that one right
  17. The stuff I’m writing is in the bible, but I don’t have the wherewithal to give you the scriptures
  18. Should I celebrate Rosh Hashana ?
  19. So so so thankful for friends and family for helping me! Also, for sending me encouraging verses – and dinner! thanks M!
  20. “Nevertheless, He regarded their affliction, when He heard them cry” Ps 106:44
  21. The Lord says ” I will dwell in them and walk among them. I will be their God and they shall be my people” 2 Cor 6″16
  22. “They cried out to the Lord in their trouble and He delivered them out of their distresses. Ps107;6
  23. Repent! I’ve been a jerk
  24. Sorrow and mourning is good, it refines us, ask King Solomon, he’ll tell you
  25. “He brought me out of the darkness and the shadow of death and broke their chains in pieces. Ps 107 somewhere
  26. Is 26:3-4 The Lord will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on Him. Trust in the Lord forever
  27. Calm down! psalm 131
  28. Charles Stanley said ” You cannot wander to far, fail too many times or exceed Christ’s love. When you repent and turn to Him, He restores you to fellowship as though nothing had ever happened.


Okay, Im too dizzy and slightly nauseous to finish but I have lots more to share and say but it takes to much effort so for now, I must rest! That needs editing, excuse me, I must go stare at my closet door for a few hours. I hope you enjoy my journey blog.

Pray always. The Our father and Ps 23 have been my guide and the meditation of my heart through it all.

Peace people and Behave!





Pastor Saeed’s letter to his daughter Rebekka. A message of Hope

Saeed Abedini, the American pastor imprisoned in Iran, writes an encouraging and beautiful letter to his daughter on her eighth birthday.Pastor Saeed Abedini wrote this letter to his daughter for her 8th birthday, which was on September 12. This is the third birthday of Rebekka’s that Pastor Saeed has missed while he languishes in an Iranian prison for his faith. Source: Samaritan’s Purse

My Dearest Rebekka Grace,


You are growing so fast and becoming more beautiful every day. I praise God for His faithfulness to me every day as I watch from a distance through the prison walls and see pictures and hear stories of how you are growing both spiritually and physically.

Oh how I long to see you.

I know that you question why you have prayed so many times for my return and yet I am not home yet. Now there is a big WHY In your mind you are asking: WHY Jesus isn’t answering your prayers and the prayers of all of the people around the world praying for my release and for me to be home with you and our family.

The answer to the WHY is WHO. WHO is control? LORD JESUS CHRIST is in control.

I desire for you to learn important lessons during these trying times. Lessons that you carry now and for the rest of your life. The answer to the WHY is WHO. The confusion of “WHY has all of this happened?” and “WHY your prayers are not answered yet” is resolved with understanding WHO is in control…LORD JESUS CHRIST, our GOD!

God is in control of the whole world and everything that is happening in it is for His good purpose, for His glory, and will be worked out for our good (Romans 8:28). Jesus allows me to be kept here for His glory. He is doing something inside each of us and also outside in the world. People die and suffer for their Christian faith all over the world and some may wonder why? But you should know the answer of WHY is WHO. It is for Jesus. He is worth the price. And He has a plan to be glorified through our lives.

I want you to read the book of Habakkuk. He had the same question as you. But see that the Lord answered him in Habakkuk 2:3, “the vision comes and doesn’t delay on time, wait for it.” Mommy and I always had big desires to serve Jesus and had great vision to be used for His Kingdom and for His Glory. So today we pay a cost because God, who created us, called us to that.

And so I want you to know that the answer to all of your prayers is that God is in control, and He knows better than us what He is doing in our lives and all around the world.

Therefore declare as Daniel and his friends Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-­‐Nego did in Daniel 3: 17-­‐18!

17 If that is the case, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and He will deliver us from your hand, O king. 18 But if not, let it be known to you, O king, that we do not serve your gods, nor will we worship the gold image which you have set up.”

And learn and declare as Habakkuk did that even if we do not get the result that we are looking for, God is still good and we WILL praise His Holy Name.

Habakkuk 3:17-­19

17 Though the fig tree may not blossom, Nor fruit be on the vines; Though the labor of the olive may fail, And the fields yield no food; Though the flock may be cut off from the fold, And there be no herd in the stalls— 18 Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation. 19 The Lord God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer’s feet, And He will make me walk on my high hills.

Then my dear beloved daughter Rebekka Grace, I pray God will bring me back home soon. But if not, we will still sing together as Habakkuk did HALLELUJAH, either separated by prison walls or together at home.

So, let Daddy hear you sing a loud Hallelujah that I can hear all the way here in the prison!

I am so proud of you my sweet courageous daughter. Glory to God forever, Amen.

Kisses and Blessings,


If I have nothing, I will always have hope. If my world crumbles and the earth quakes, I still have hope to cling to. If I hear of sickness and the dread of evil, I will not fear for I always have hope. I know that there will be a day of no more tears and no more fears.

A hope in the evidence of things unseen, which is my faith Hebrews 11:1

A hope, that now through Christ, I can draw close to God Hebrews 7:17-19

A hope, that is the anchor of my soul. Even though this life I may go through storms, trials and troubles that try to sweep me away into the waters, I will always cling to my hope, always looking ahead, always running for the prize, never doubting and finding my strength to endure in this hope Hebrews 6:1-

A hope that brings me behind the veil, into the Holy presence of our creator and Lord Jesus Christ who entered for us. This hope is sure and steadfast Hebrews 6:19

A hope that endures through the end Hebrews 6:11

A hope in eternal life and heirs to His Kingdom Titus 3:17

A prayer of hope, a prayer of praise, a prayer for direction, a prayer for strength in troubled times

O Lord God of Heaven and Earth,

In danger, I will hide beneath your wings
In fear, I will trust in you
In despair, I give my burdens to you.
In my sins, you purify me
In brokenness, you restore my joy.
In troubles, you rescue me each time.
In hard times, you give me more than enough
I will not be disgraced.
In discouragement, I will hope in You
I will praise You again.
If I stumble, you keep me from falling
You hold me by my hand.
If I have gone astray, you show me the right way
You point in the direction in which I am to go.

   O God, I praise you. You are my King and my God. You knew me before the foundation of the the earth, you know me by name. How beautiful are your laws. Your unfailing love covers me as a shield. You alone are Holy and Righteous. Let all the earth praise your Great name. For in my distress you heard me, You lifted me out of raging waters. You are my refuge and my High tower of safety. I will shout to you with joyful praise. You are my refuge and my strength, my ever-present help in times of trouble.

Lord, my troubles overwhelm me, my enemies surround me and bring trouble. Confuse my enemies O Lord. Confuse and frustrate the plans of the wicked, for wickedness has filled my land, truth and righteousness are no longer found and everything is falling apart. But I will call on my God- The Lord who rescues me- The God who has ruled forever will rescue me. Lord, look upon the threats and those who speak against you and your laws. I will no longer worry about the wicked, I remember that they will soon fade away. Grant your servants with all boldness to speak your Word by stretching out your hand to heal and that signs and wonders may be done through your name of your Holy Servant Jesus.

Lord, may your face shine upon your people. Arise O lord and rescue us. Slap all our enemies in the face for victory comes from you O God, Bless your people. You are my light and my Salvation, why should I be afraid? I will remain confident in You. Teach me how to live O God. Lead me along the right paths. I will wait patiently for the Lord. I will be brave and courageous for you O God. Yes, I will wait patiently for You. You are my Rock and my Safety, my Strength and my Shield. I trust in you with all my heart. You strengthen me and fill me with joy.

Lord, answer my cries in my times of trouble. Strengthen me according to your word. May your name keep me from all harm , send your help from the sanctuary to rescue me and strengthen me from your Holy Mountain. May you grant us our hearts desires and make all our plans succeed. Lord, answer the people’s prayers. Lead me in the right path, O Lord, and make your way plain for me to follow. Bless me, indeed, and enlarge my territory that your hand would be with me and that you would keep me from evil that I may not cause pain to anyone.

Thank you Father for your Holy Spirit, for saving me and dwelling in me. Thank you for your unconditional love, your tender mercies and for faithfully keeping your promises. I know that with you, O God, I can overcome every obstacle, with you, O God, I can do all things through Christ Jesus. I can face each day with joy and victory no matter what comes my way. I stand unshakable because you are with me. No matter what trials may come my way, I stand unshakable because You are My God and in You I trust. I give my burdens to you, O Lord and I know you will take care of me. I trust in you to save me, so why should I be afraid?

Your promises are true and trustworthy, standing forever. You help those who trust in You. You will grant the desires of those hearts who delight in You. You causes those who trust in you to live in safety and prosper.  You give all those who fear your name all their needs.  Who are we that you should consider us? Your grace and love over us is too infinite for us to understand. Thank you for your unfailing love.

If I have gone astray or drifted from your laws, show me the right path. Create in me a clean heart O God, and renew a loyal spirit within in me. Do not banish me from your presence. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and make me willing to obey you. For your instructions are my joy, they are perfect and revive my soul. Cleanse me from my hidden faults and keep me from sin and don’t let them control me. I put my hope in you.

I will not fear when troubles come.  I will not fear when earthquakes come or when mountains crumble into the sea. I will wait patiently for You, my God, I will stand still before Your presence, for You, My God will be honored in every nation and throughout the world. The Lord of Heavens armies is here among us, praise His name, and the God of Israel is our Fortress forever. In you O God, I trust,

In the name of Jesus, the Holy Son of God, I pray  Amen
Psalms  3, 4, 5,6,7,19, 20, 27,28,35, 51,56, Acts 4, 1 Cor 3


How to walk on water when you jump off the boat

    I recently began home schooling one of my daughters. It was day three of High School and she was completely overwhelmed. She quit swim team because of the work load -3 math classes, plus a mandatory online class added to a full day of classes. I went to the school counselor many times, but the counselor wouldn’t budge on the work load they had given her. I knew this wasn’t right. Within 24 hours, I read up on the laws, found a local home school group, selected a curriculum, asked millions of questions and sent my letter of intent to our county school board the next day. I always thought about home schooling but I could never figure it out, it seemed difficult and impossible.  I know without a doubt, the hand of the Lord was leading in all of this. It was truly amazing to see how everything worked out. Even in my chaotic world, everything worked out perfectly as if pieces of a puzzle were all being pieced together.

    It was as if I had jumped off the security of trusting in the schools and all they had to offer- like the safety of a ship and do something impossible- walk on water.

For me, it was about trusting God. It is about faith.

 Fix your thoughts if you want to walk on the water

 As I begin this unfamiliar journey, I know there is a lot at stake. It’s a huge risk but the bigger the risk, the bigger the reward. Will she make it? Will she succeed? Can I do this? Will she get into college? How can I prepare her for the SAT? How can I make up for all the lost years of knowledge she never received in the public schools? Is she learning enough? Do I remember World History? Can I teach? What if? What if? What if?

    Those are thoughts I refuse to entertain. I know the Lord is with me. I started this race and I will run to win, and that’s it. There is no other thought than that for me to entertain. I have learned that our thoughts keep us grounded in our faith and trust in the Lord. I remember to Philippians 4:8 my thoughts at all times.

“Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you”

 Another version says “Fix your thoughts”. Notice how it ends with a promise of God’s peace.  How do I keep my faith up so I don’t drown? I fix my thoughts. Maybe the last few (many) years have been my training ground to get to this point – where I have the strength and discipline to fix my thoughts.

You can’t walk on water if you are worrying and complaining – it’s weight that will sink you

   The same rule of Philippians 4:8 can be applied for finances, sickness, family issues and other worries. Jesus said worrying won’t add one more day to our life. A few years ago I cried out to the Lord in my distress. It seemed like my entire world was about to fall apart. By the world’s standpoint, we couldn’t survive, it was impossible. I began to pray telling God about my situation and what was going to happen. As I was praying I saw a verse come out of the heavens towards me.  I couldn’t read it at first because it was so far away, but as it got closer and closer to me I could see it. I saw “Isaiah 51:12” I got up from my prayer time to find the verse:

I, even I, am he that comforteth you: who art thou, that thou shouldest be afraid of a man that shall die, and of the son of man which shall be made as grass;

  Wow, what was that saying to me? Was I trusting in man’s words and doom around me or was I trusting in the supernatural powerful hand of the Lord Almighty? Why should I put my trust in the words people say? The news I read? Or the worries of this world? They will all disappear. The Lord comforts me and He tells us over and over again NOT TO WORRY but to be strong and courageous in all you do, doing all you do as if you are doing it for the Lord.

  • Deuteronomy 31:6 So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you
  • Joshua 1:9 This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go
  • 1 Corinthians 16:13 Be on guard. Stand firm in the faith. Be courageous. Be strong
  • Don’t complain: Numbers 11:1 [ Fire From the Lord ] Now the people complained about their hardships in the hearing of the Lord, and when he heard them his anger was aroused. Then fire from the Lord burned among them and consumed some of the outskirts of the camp and Numbers 14:27 “How long will this wicked community grumble against me? I have heard the complaints of these grumbling Israelites

God will give you the strength you need

Feeling discouraged? Feeling down? The Lord is your strength. Ask Him for help. Consider Isaiah 41;30 But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint

The Lord is always right beside you, but you need to reach out for His help. Call on Him and He will answer. Trust Him and He will carry you through. He can strengthen you when you feel week, He will lift you up when you fall and He is never too far way, but always beside us. Try and see, the Lord is good and His Promises never fail.

We walk by faith, and not by sight

Keep your heart protected so you don’t speak words of faithlessness

    If I let my thoughts run away into negative and wrong things, soon they slip out of my mouth into the hearts of those around me. That’s no good! I said something this weekend to my youngest daughter I wish I wouldn’t have said. I had thought it for a while and oops! There it came out of my mouth into her ears and she heard it. Ugh! I need to shut out anything negative and keep my children protected also Prov 4:23

Guard your heart above all else,
    for it determines the course of your life.
 Avoid all perverse talk;
    stay away from corrupt speech.
 Look straight ahead,
    and fix your eyes on what lies before you.
Mark out a straight path for your feet;
    stay on the safe path.
Don’t get sidetracked;
    keep your feet from following evil.

 I know! I’m always quoting this verse – but it’s key and it’s connected like a puzzle to many things in the bible especially the teachings of Jesus. We need to make sure nothing sinks into the well of our heart unless it undergoes the Philippians 4;8 test.

   Are our thoughts really important? Read the verses below. Consider the psalms of David. He would cry out in distress to the Lord and each time David would call on the promises of God in His prayer. He always spoke and prayed in faith even when he was in terrible trouble. Imagine what Abraham was thinking as he marched his son Isaac to the mountain. The only way Abraham got there was by faith and the only way he had faith was by looking straight ahead, not looking to the left or right. He put all his focus on the orders God gave Him and marched on without doubt. He fixed His thoughts. We see the same thing with Esther when she went before the King and many other people of the bible.

  • Matthew 6:25 Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?
  • Matthew 6:27 Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?
  • Matthew 6:28 And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:
  • Matthew 6:31 Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
  • Matthew 6:34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof
  • Psalm 139:2 Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off
  • Proverbs 12:5 The thoughts of the righteous are right: but the counsels of the wicked are deceit
  • Proverbs 21:5 The thoughts of the diligent tend only to plenteousness; but of every one that is hasty only to want
  • 1 Peter 4:12 Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you

Beware of the Devil’s lies that cause doubt and discouragment 

  Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints Ephesians 6

You also need discernment as you step out in faith and walk on the water. The Lord explained discernment to me by allowing me to see the fiery darts that the devil sends. They are just like arrows and they are aimed straight for your head. The arrows are full of wrong thoughts, blasphemy, discouragement, doubt and everything against Jesus and the Lord. Discernment is knowing what to allow yourself to think and ponder and what to throw out and refuse to think about.

  • 1 Corinthians 2:14 But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned
  • Ecclesiastes 8:5 Whoso keepeth the commandment shall feel no evil thing: and a wise man’s heart discerneth both time and judgment.
  • Ezekiel 44:23 And they shall teach my people the difference between the holy and profane, and cause them to discern between the unclean and the clean

What is of the Lord and what is not? You see, the devil tries to plant a poisonous lie into your thoughts so it sinks down into your heart and soon becomes a part of your every day life. That is just one of his tactics. You don’t have to think about everything that comes into your mind. Keep your eyes and your thoughts fixed on the prize-Salvation in Jesus Christ.

  • James 4:7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
  • 1 Peter 5:8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour

Whatsoever you do, do it for the Glory of God

Work willingly at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people.  Remember that the Lord will give you an inheritance as your reward, and that the Master you are serving is Christ. But if you do what is wrong, you will be paid back for the wrong you have done. For God has no favorites Col 3:23

Not with eye service, as men pleasers; but as the servants of Christ, doing the will of God from the heart; With good will doing service, as to the Lord, and not to men:Knowing that whatsoever good thing any man doeth, the same shall he receive of the Lord, whether he be bond or free. Eph 6:7-8

   In everything you do, do it as if you are doing it for the Lord. Run the race to win. I started this race and I will finish. Don’t give up if you are struggling with doubt or discouragement. Lift your head up and keep going.

Persistance is key!

  • Luke 18:1[ The Parable of the Persistent Widow ] Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up.
  • Romans 2:7To those who by persistence in doing good seek glory, honor and immortality, he will give eternal life.

   Persistance is a running theme through scripture. David didn’t give up! Noah didn’t give up! They all had difficult times yet they pursued through them. Isaiah, Zechariah, Jeremiah, Esther, Mordecai, the Shumanite woman, Rahab, Abraham, Jesus! Peter, Paul, Stephen – their lives weren’t perfect, they had struggles yet each one had persistence and endured to the end victorious.

I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me  

    From day one I can sense the darts of defeat and discouragement coming out me, but I don’t allow them to enter my mind. I remind myself that I started this race and I will finish this race and I run to win.  Each day throws new challenges and new obstacles in my way, but I know with God I can do anything. With God I can jump the highest mountains, with God I can win the race. Now my 5-8 hours of bible study a day has gone down to 2-3 hours as I relearn biology, World History, Spanish and Algebra. I can see God’s handiwork in each of these subjects I am teaching my daughter.  I remember these verses and they keep me going:

If thou faint in the day of adversity, thy strength is small Proverbs 24:10

 If thou hast run with the footmen, and they have wearied thee, then how canst thou contend with horses? and if in the land of peace, wherein thou trustedst, they wearied thee, then how wilt thou do in the swelling of Jordan? Jeremiah 12:5

    If I faint in times of adversity, how can I race against the strong? So each day I keep on and each day I see God’s miraculous hand on my life and my steps. Trust Him in all your ways and He will direct your paths.

Did Jesus promise the walk to be easy?

   No, but He did promise to walk with us. He did promise to always help us. He did promise that we are overcomers in Christ Jesus and though Him, all His promises are yes, true and amen.

Why did I make this decision?

          My 15 year old was never taught grammar in the public school. She can’t figure out multiplication because the way she was taught was so confusing. The kids are expected to type all their papers but no one has been taught how to type. The students hen peck at 10-20wpm and they cannot read or write cursive. How can they attend 4 years of college hen pecking the keyboard and using bubble baby print for note taking as they listen to their college professor? How are they going to calculate statistics if they have to draw boxes to figure out a simple math problem? I am ready to pull my second grader out as well. The math they teach is confusing. They try to teach logic without foundation. You need foundation first and then logic comes. An example of the new math is 436 + 249, instead of lining them up and adding them, the children are told to draw out 6 hundred boxes, then 7 ten lines,  then 15 small circles for the ones, then they have to count the boxes, the lines and the ones, finally they must line up all those numbers and add them all up. Calculators are encouraged, homework and class time are spent playing games on computers to “tutor”. God is far away and non existent in the schools. “English 1” is 6 months of learning and studying all the greek gods, their offspring, and perverted affairs – for middle and high school- without grammar knowledge or writing skills.  Who is behind this? Why are they dumbing down our kids? Why aren’t they teaching history? Why aren’t they encouraging students to read biographies ,autobiographies or something intelligent? The scholastic book bulletin just came out and 80% of the books are about magic.  As I prepare for SAT teaching , I read that 22% of the biology exam is proving and acknowledging the evidence of evolution and patterns of evolution. Isn’t that a violation of my religious rights?

    My daughter now has more social interaction than she did in school. She is able to join in at youth groups, drama groups, learn guitar and volunteer at a local ministry.  These are all things she was unable to do when she was going to school. She is a different person, I can see her joy. She has always wanted to be in the famous Fort Lauderdale Christmas Pageant but homework made that impossible. Now she is able to be a part of this cast. She practices for hours every week. God is truly good and surely has taken care of my daughter because she belongs to Him.

Do you want to walk on water? Has God called you to a specific task and you think it’s impossible for you?

  • Trust God, not man
  • Fix your thoughts
  • Refuse to worry
  • Don’t let doubt and discouragment entertain your thoughts
  • Call on God for Strength
  • Watch your words- begin by guarding  your heart
  • Be wise to the devil’s lies and pray for discernment
  • Stay Grounded in Gods word which gives discernment
  • In all you do, do as if you are doing it for the Lord
  • Don’t think it a strange thing when you run into trials
  • Run the race to win
  • See you at the finish line! 🙂

and fyi: is a site I created to help my daughter out with certain subjects. This link lists all the sites that helped me make my curriculum decisions. If you are considering homeschooling, check out the sites and programs offered.

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